::Inspiration::

an eventful day...

perhaps an understatement.. haha.. with a mixture of excitement, honour, embarrassment, happiness and sadness..

the day started off not too well.. i was late for work as usual.. although my boss is never ever on time.. haha.. but somehow i feel bad being late.. anyway i opened my nus mail in the office and got this..

Dear Rebecca,
I refer to your appeal for review of the examination results for the above module.
Your appeal has been duly considered by the department. Upon the review, it is now confirmed that there are no errors in your results.
I therefore re-affirm the results conveyed to you earlier.

yes i requested for a review of my results.. i knew somehow that there wasn't any error.. but i was so upset with it that i had to do something.. at least i know i've tried to salvage it in anyway i could and i now know wad went wrong.. we fail.. but success is perhaps the learning from failures.. i'm hoping to learn the art of learning..

the first step i've succeeded in was not to get affected.. my work helped me a lot.. coz it was during working hours i received the news.. i have to admit that the first few minutes i was saddened.. but thereafter the excitement in work made me feel that there are greater stuff for me to do outside of school worrying abt results.. and the greater stuff is interviewing pple!!

haha.. actually i juz requested to sit in for the interview that my boss was conducting.. coz he needs to fill in 2 perm staff positions in his dept.. my boss being such a nice boss.. haha.. of course he agreed.. :) without being interviewed into this internship, i sat in and commented on the candidates in the end.. yar i noe.. i always always skip steps..

i told him he was too picky.. haha.. but he did mention to me the difficulty in employing a suitable perm staff into the positions.. and i thought that i understood wad criterias of the person he requires.. so we interviewed 2 candidates in the morning in the office.. ard half and hour each.. i din ask any questions though.. coz those pple were all at least 10 yrs my senior.. it was rather tiring.. having to listen to wad the person had to say.. at the same time looking at the transcripts.. looking at their body language.. and he wasn't very nice in the interview room.. very much different from the boss i knew coz he was quite intimidating and demanding.. in fact i told him after he rejected the first candidate right on the spot that he was quite direct abt it.. after which he did decide that he was too harsh.. hahha..

but it was a whole new experience.. it was exchanging positions to understand wad the interviewer wants.. and the little don'ts during interviews.. the little things make the difference.. overconfidence may seem like arrogance.. body language tells a lot.. and smile.. haha.. yupz.. and i feel very honoured that he values my opinion a lot.. he'll ask wad i feel and i'll tell him my comments.. ok i din pass the first 2 candidates though.. oops..

afterwhich we went out for lunch and then coffee/tea.. during which i found out that i did one of the most embarrassing things in my life.. i was gossipping with my fren abt him and whether he had a family during my first week my work.. he totally looked single.. and for abt 4-5 days i knew him he never spoke of his family.. i din dare to ask either.. but i was curious.. really.. only until a lunch meeting we had that he mentioned a daughter.. nothing more than that.. so i got even more curious.. and so when we were juz chatting as usual.. i subtly dug it out of him.. i contained my excitement.. only after i knocked off and we parted did i msg my fren..

my sms: "i dug it out of him.. he's happily married with 2 kids.. i din tell him wad we thot initally though.. haha.." (the rest of the msg is not impt) and guess wad.. i msged the wrong person!!! the second i pressed send i immediately canceled it.. i checked my sent items.. and there wasn't anything.. so i happily thought the send wasn't successful.. and it totally was off my mind.. but on sat morn he msged me sth weird.. he asked me wad was my first impression of him.. i din reply also coz i din manage to read it in time.. then the following msg he asked me not to worry was said he was juz making fun of my sms.. i genuinely thot he was just being funny trying to disturb me (not in a good way) i really din noe that he meant that sms..

until today.. i totally could feel blood rushing all the way to my face and ears.. i was so damn embarrassed and kept apologizing to him.. and i told him the truth abt my impression of him.. hmm he knew it wasn't something good.. but i think he understands that in our attempt not to be gullible we would rather suspect first then suspect later.. and guess wad.. i'm still on guard even up till now..

i was disorientated for a while.. nothing he said abt work went into my mind.. but afterwhich i realised we had to go back for a meeting where he had to do some presentation with the power point slides i did.. hahaha.. and he hadn't looked @ it when the meeting was in 1 hrs time.. i told him that i think he trusts me a lot.. luckily i din get him disappointed this time.. :)

and the funny thing is that soon after the advisor of the intitative organisation i'm involved in came for the meeting as well.. and me being respectful offered to get a cup of coffee for him.. and when i came back and he asked me how long i'll be working on this intern.. (i'll be ending on the 7th july) he asked me to go work for him as an intern after that.. hahahahaha.. it was hilarious.. and i felt flattered once again.. but i din accept nor reject it coz i thot i should let my boss noe.. after the meeting my boss asked me wad we talked abt.. and i told him he's got a rival poaching me over.. but somehow he seemed like he expected it and wasn't too supportive of it..

i told my boss that i was impressed with his presentation.. i truly was because he could bring in so many relevant examples not included in my slides.. juz @ the back of his hand.. whoa.. we then went for another interview over dinner.. i juz had the urge to tag along coz i think i'm addicted to listening to interviews and having a hand in deciding who gets employed.. oops.. haha..

@ dinner i received a call from one of my seniors.. and asked me to join in the organising committee for the internal case competition.. u noe.. the one i got so *ahem inspired.. hahaha.. how could i reject that? coz they thot it'll be better to have a junior inside such that they do not have to worry abt the succession of it in future years.. although that means that i cannot participate in that competition.. but i'll still strive for a chance in the external ones once if there were opportunities.. yes i skip the steps again.. but all the rest of them are seniors we are experienced in external case competitions.. so i guess i could ask them abt it and all.. :) and u noe wad that implies? be inspired pple.. be inspired..

and for the last interview.. i could feel that wad my boss needed was juz confirmation abt his opinion.. and he said he could feel that i passed the person too.. prob it was my subconscious body language when i'm judging pple again.. haha.. i think we were both impressed with each other's sharp judgement and sensing of judgement.. maybe i should go into HR yar.. haha.. before we parted he said that he noes how to use me the way no one else will noe.. wah.. i'm looking forward to noeing and developing it too coz i don't really noe my strengths yet..

i went to meet up with long lost frens after that.. with my jc mates i haven't met for years.. literally.. when i reached there i almost gave the rest of them a shock.. haha coz i guess i looked different.. it's my hair and my dressing la.. the dressing is not my fault.. i had work mah.. we talked most of the time.. noeing wad each other is doing and all.. it was great to catch up with frens and bring back memories of the past.. the guys went to watch world cup in the end.. but i was too dead tired by 10 plus that i had to go home to rest.. couldn't last till 11.50pm outside anymore..

rebec inspired @ 12:57 AM Comments: 3