work and 'play'
i've been working for the past 2 days.. earning a grand total of $117.. at least i'm bringing in some income to supplement my shopping expenses.. (great singapore sale is coming! haha..)::work::
fri was helping out in the business alumni homecoming for the man of letters musical from 9am to 11pm.. super shag after that.. but it was good money coz we were a super efficient group of pple when it comes to packing of goodie bags, hence we were paid for the free time to ourselves too.. hee.. though my arms are still aching from transporting the cartons of coffee..
after which i was actually arrowed into a job of 'entertaining' the corporate partners of biz school.. which are supposedly the super big shots who have links with the school itself.. and my job description was 'to make small talks with them'.. frankly i'm not a person who is good at words.. esp when it comes to conversing with business people at functions.. luckily the incentive of my position is also that i get paid $8/hr to watch the musical for free! so i din feel that annoyed abt it.. haha..
i did make conversation with this guy who seemed alone at the function quite early.. (or more like he started the conversation with me..) i was rather uptight at first.. coz i knew he was our corporate partner and some big shot from some company.. certain questions he asked i somehow juz stunned there.. like why din u choose smu .. haha.. direct eh.. but these answers i haven't really practiced since open house.. or wad do u want to go into when u graduate.. after which i think i was thrown once again into uncertainty of the direction in my life.. but the conversation started to liven up when i was curious and wanted to know the difference in employability of students from smu and nus from his perpective.. *ahem.. and the contents shall not be revealed.. but i did learn a lot from it.. and i still believe it boils down to understanding wad one really wants, searching and obtaining wad is lacking to achieve it.. and the best part.. hopefully internship opportunities! haha.. (it's still interesting how he judged from my looks that i somehow don't belong to nus biz)
::play::
i watched the 'play', 'man of letters' by dick lee.. a simple yet beautiful musical which inspires me to think.. abt whether the sacrifices of revolution are fools or martyrs.. abt the courage to love and to make known ur love, and courage to let go.. i cried towards the end.. partially coz of the character in the show, partially coz of the things running through my mind.. somehow it relates.. and the sadness recalled..
i loved the song 'there's no such thing' when the female lead was speaking of her prospective boyfriend.. and was losing the confidence for him to even exist.. maybe he's a tale, perhaps there's no such thing'.. it reminded me of how i once felt.. she seemed to have sung my story.. my favourite scene was the one at the balcony.. the words he spoke and the songs he sung to her were so beautiful.. so romantic.. it melted my heart.. yet the pain of giving up his love for the loyalty to a fren.. or perhaps due to his hesistance to admit his love for her.. i started tearing when he was writing his last letter to her in the name of his fren.. i somehow could feel his misery and sorrow.. yet his hidden passion for her.. it ended with a happy ending.. but it still depressed me.. it got me thinking.. thinking abt things i know was never within my control and never will be.. i feel helpless and vulnerable.. my independence was lost..
::work::
yest was working for the school with regard to the freshman reception tea.. helping in the tea reception for the prospective freshman of biz school.. my juniors haha.. first is to persuade them to come to nus if they have not decided yet.. and second to persuade them to go for the freshman orientation camp.. which i strongly recommend coz of the fun! haha.. actually most of the time i did filming of the event.. tiring for the hands but not for the mind.. hee.. did talk to some of them around.. and i'm really looking forward to a batch of juniors! haha..
rebec inspired @ 1:12 AM
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