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Of luck love and life..

No one can probably guess that I wrote this post on the office on my office notebook, saved it in my thumb drive and went home to publish on my blog.. for 2 reasons.. One, I have neglected my blog and I’m guilty for that, but I really don’t have time to sit down and write an entry when I reach home. Two, I am really bored in the office and need to often pretend I’ve got work, yet I do not have the internet which u won’t come to realize how dependent u are on it till u lose it..

After reconciliation, I’ve decided to exploit the best of both worlds and use the time that I have in excess during work to do something I can’t find time to do after work haha.. it’s a wonder how I learn to entertain myself so well but then again practice makes perfect.. I guess after weeks of boredom u’ll come up with amazing ways and means of keeping urself occupied inconspicuously..

Ages since I last blogged.. and even longer since I last went online to chat.. in other words I’ve been lost in contact with the rest of the world.. many things had happened since, some good, some bad, some undefined.. I feel like I’ve been moving on my life without substantial fulfillment and achievement these months.. it’s bad.. coz we’re all supposed to live our life to the fullest everyday.. but somethings cannot be helped I guess.. when circumstances don’t allow..

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Luck comes in 2 forms, good and bad ones.. cherish them while the good ones last, and take them in ur stride when bad ones befall upon u.. precisely because luck is involved, there isn’t much u can do to salvage, because it is beyond human intervention.. I saw good luck at a lucky draw in a quarterly company event, where I supposedly won 20 bucks shopping voucher by being among 26 of those voting for the most popular project name.. I was supposed to collect the prize from my big big big boss, but it wasn’t exactly ready for me at that time.. well till now it hasn’t been ready for me yet anyway.. guess they probably conveniently forgot abt it since it’s an intern who won it.. so much for the good luck..

Things come in pairs.. so when there’s good luck in lucky draws, more often than not it may overrun into bad ones.. balloting for housing in NY have been a luck filled experience for me, since I among so many others have been the lucky few chosen not to receive NYU housing.. meaning I’ve gotta go scout for my own apartment housing in the city for my exchange program.. disastrous as it was when I first received the news.. that meant a lot more work in planning coz I’ll need to do my own search and a lot more money involved coz renting off campus naturally costs more.. then there’s the problem of being separated from the crowd and my fellow NY goers from NUS.. and then I have to worry abt my own safety in the city when I get home everyday.. and the guilt and dilemma of dragging a fren out of on campus housing to stay with me off campus.. hmm.. so much for the bad luck..

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Love comes in many forms.. but the basis of it all remains the same.. show that u love the people around you.. because love isn’t enough juz kept within urself.. I learnt that lately.. was a very painful and depressing experience.. but I learnt something out of it.. I’m not a person who knows how to express it well.. but I guess somethings gotta change..

Love in a friendship is great.. as in purely between friends.. but you’ll come to realize that interaction beyond day to day meet ups and lunches and movies will allow u to know more abt ur frens as well as urself.. that love in the relationship can be all accommodating for some.. but it can’t be for others.. especially when we are grown ups we tend to have ideas of our own.. and when they differ.. it’s hard to reconcile the differences.. it’s a delicate balance.. to care for the frenship and to insist on ur own approaches.. in any case.. I still believe that showing the appreciation and respect first is of utmost importance.. I can be a lot more forgiving thereafter..

Love can be for many things.. and I have rekindled my love for reading, puzzling and traveling haha.. well I’ve been borrowing books from the library consistently as usual a mix of mystery thrillers and romance stories.. but I borrowed a classic (other than pride and prejudice) which I believe I’ve never tried reading before.. Great Expectations.. haha I don’t noe whether I’ll get down to reading it actually.. but yea I had the action plan in place haha.. puzzling was a sudden urge coz I happened to see my 2000 piece puzzle lying around when I was searching for something.. I decided to take it out and start piecing them together.. I remember I left off a few years ago when I realized that I’ve completed 1/3 of the puzzle, with a remaining 2/3 of it in all shades of blue and white coz it was the sky and the clouds haha.. so now it’s back on my table.. and I’ll try piecing one or two pieces together everyday.. doubt I can complete it before I leave for NY though..

I love traveling.. and for that I’m willing to do the planning haha.. actually it’s no big deal la I’ve juz printed out the map of cities in Europe and US and starting to think of which places I should visit with my frens.. I think I’m slightly ambitious but I still believe that with careful planning it should work out.. so my US plans are during the semester.. and my Europe plans are after semester with some frens..

US Plans:
Weekend traveling includes Pennsylvania of course have to the famed UPenn and visit my bro’s good fren to get my stuff haha, and of course another fren at NOC there.. includes Boston to visit the famed Harvard and MIT and eat the good food there is there.. next will be Niagara Falls is a definite must go, then there’s Washington DC to visit, and Chicago if it can be done during the weekend.. one Sunday will of course be dedicated to watching the US Open finals J

There are a lot more places in the US that requires longer periods of time.. and since there are only 2 long breaks I can only think of 2 major areas to go.. but I have a feeling there won’t be enough time.. Miami and Orlando to visit the beach area and to visit Disney World! Then of course there’s the West coast which is LA area, San Francisco, Las Vegas, and San Diego.. I think that is slightly difficult coz it covers a lot of places which are not exactly near each other.. hmm I’ll have to work that out..

Europe Plans:
Actually Europe planning lies in the hands of another fren haha.. but my ambitious plans includes Amsterdam à Berlin à Vienna à Rome à Venice à Zurich à Paris à London.. Great I think I’ve sufficiently made people envious of me and think that I’m crazy ahhaha..

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For everything else not under the above 2 category, I’ve decided to write it here.. for the sake of alliteration of course haha.. otherwise everything can be grouped under life actually.. it’s cliché but I’d still like to say that time flies.. and it waits for no men.. it’s scary how year after year ur life juz goes past and u start asking what u have achieved.. and when I goes to nothing u start of fear.. I feel like my life has been following a strict and narrow path.. and I dare not take the wrong step left or right because forward should be the way to go.. hmm but as I told a fren there are 2 sides in everyone.. hopefully the crazy side of me will emerge more in an environment more liberal than Singapore.. haha NY is definitely a place to start it all..

FOC happened this week.. and yesterday I went to Sentosa to play a fool at SP session after work.. it was half saddening and half fun.. saddening because I felt older once again and this is the 3rd FOC.. when the first is still so vivid in my mind.. and saddening because there were little seniors as compared to the previous years.. but fun because there were still the old people like us and I realized we knew each other.. and we had good catch up sessions while disturbing the sp couples on the beach and eavesdropping on their conversation.. and fun because we have all tried to relive the memories of FOC.. there’s sp night at a club tonight.. I guess I’ll drop by after my dinner appointment.. provided it’s free of course haha…

Several meetups with my JC mates.. and it was interesting to see how we all have grown up yet all remained the same as well.. one worth mentioning is probably a meetup with my JC OG mates.. yes JC OG mates… I seriously think it’s considerable efforts on the organiser’s part because more often than not one person will have to be the one doing the contacting.. I think I’ve never laughed so much for a very long time, because the conversations and the people were juz downright amusing.. somewhat impossible.. but I had not been surprised either.. and once again we recount and we realize again the stories of the past.. as well the untold ones during that time.. what is left is juz beautiful memories because nothing more is needed..

I’ve matured I guess.. to be better able to take setbacks instead of crying over it and demanding for the reason why.. we set standards for ourselves as well as for others, and we often try to meet them without which we will be disappointed.. expectations are good, but they must be realistic and they must allow leeway.. even the best will fail, because we are only human.. we’ll juz have to constantly remind ourselves of that fact, because failures are difficult to swallow with all eyes watching.. they are obstacles along the way which we’ll somehow have to learn to overcome, because life is no smooth road for anyone..

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